Self Love

Living the Wormhole. Grief as the transformer.

I have really lived this ‘wormhole’ period of the last 6 weeks.

Wormhole: being propelled instantly through a Gateway of Power by once-in-a-lifetime astrological occurrences into a new dimension of understanding. Yep, really.

I am living a roller coaster of my deepest fears and wildest fantasies.  I have experienced incredibly beautiful loving and sharing with my lover and then crashed horribly into judgement, fear and blame of him, and from him, right afterwards.  My cash flow issues reared their ugly heads, and having to clean up the mess through my personal shame around that, was excruciating.  And then my worst fear happened…my lover broke up with me and I felt devastating loss.  I had to let go of trying to fix any of it on my own,  and just simply  surrendered to the ‘rock bottom‘ of my life on the down side, wondering what the universe had in store for me next.  I felt like I had no control at all.

So at rock bottom, it was easy to sign up for an 11/11 full 24 hr Grief Ritual for our personal losses and through that, the collective.  I prayed to be healed of my grief around my current relationship.  I felt all the pain of the hurts I had felt through our time together.  I felt all the abandonment his actions had triggered in me, the present and the past – from my childhood.  Also inspired by a desire to pray around the Fukishima events unfolding, I prayed for all of the people involved at the nuclear plant in Japan and humanity watching on in fear.   I felt for humanity and for the Earth and what is happening on her.

The ritual was held in the name of the Black Madonna (Kali) and, wailing inside, I went to the depths.  I wept a little, and went numb  for what seemed like a LOOOONG time, and felt an almost unbearable heaviness.  The ritual gave us permission to feel it all with no set time to come out.  I felt things I had been repressing for a LOOOONG time.  And in vivid detail.  Was there no end to this dark tunnel?  Getting triggered into rage at a note from my ex-lover actually catapulted me out of the darkness and I raged like crazy.  After embracing the fury, finally the grief lifted.  At the end, I was strangely empty and soft, and knew in my bones that I wanted healing.

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With that intention foremost on my mind, the next day, I went to see my lover to talk, and and shared from the deepest part of me what I desired.  A healing into love, if we were departing – knowing I wanted us to end with love, not estrangement. There was a buzz of shakti in my body and my heart chakra was alive, and I was very vulnerable.  After some sharing, the energy in the room shifted.  In exhaustion and surrender, I had dropped all my accusations, blame and struggle for perfection and I just was.  And miraculously, in perfect mirroring, so did he.  He dropped all his prior conditions, lists of ‘good qualities’ and relationship contracts said he just wanted to love me, however that would be.  He said the purity with which I came to him helped him to feel a new level of love.  It was a total reversal.  The grieving what had been was over. And all that was left were feelings of softness and yearning for connection between us where previously there had only been hurt and estrangement.

The great ‘She’ showed me that letting go and fully embracing my vulnerability showed me that LOVE is the great resurrector, the only true transformer.  And I believe it.  I lived it.  All is possible with love….

So that is my story.  What is yours?

As we near the end of the ‘wormhole‘, the astrological name for the eclipses, and other astrological challenges we are dealing with at present, we have one more piece to navigate.  The full moon in Scorpio on Sunday.  By now we have learned what we are dealing with and transforming.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  This period will likely leave you profoundly changed. We are integrating what we have learned from the intensity of the last month.  The full moon on Sunday synthesizes all… we start to walk out talk!

I know you have been through it yourself, and I feel you.  Blessings.

If you want to participate in the next Grief Ritual it will be on 12/12/13.  Look for details here.

From my past post, here is the ECLIPSE definition again: An eclipse always means that some amount of change is due, or sometimes overdue. If one has neglected matters, then an eclipse may bring a sort of crisis in order to turn things around and bring things back into a healthier balance.   Or an eclipse may open new doors and present major life-changing opportunities.

When an eclipse aligns closely with one of your planets, the significance of the eclipse for you is intensified. The closer the eclipse aligns with your natal planet, the more important it is.

In the outside world and in our personal lives, an eclipse is a dynamic transit that often coincides with important developments. It contains a stimulating and excitable energy that is sometimes a bit destabilizing.  Activity often increases shortly following an eclipse (or even prior to the eclipse, in some cases). This is why it’s recommended to hold off on making major life altering changes or decisions around the time of an eclipse. The atmospheric energy needs a little time to settle out. That way your new plan, project, or strategy has a better chance of stabilizing and working out in your favor.

Everyone feels the stimulation of an eclipse to some degree. For some it is subtle, while for others it can be quite intense. It can be enlightening to simply observe the things going on around you at eclipse time. Sometimes a relatively small incident gives clues to issues that will take on more importance in the months to come.
(summarized from http://www.llewellyn.com/journal/article/1357)

If you would like to schedule an astrological reading to find out how this eclipse is affecting your chart during this month of Scorpio and for the next 6 months, ask the Scorpio Astrologer! email me at josie@tantricalchemy.com to make an appointment.  **Special Wormhole rate of $85 for 60 mins*

 

 

RECLAIM YOUR FEMININE POWER IN 5 WEEKS! Completes next Friday December 6th

Newsletter for workshop series!! here
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RECLAIM YOUR FEMININE POWER IN 5 WEEKS!  Begins next Friday November 1st
Are you feeling this intense Eclipse time?  You are not alone.
We are in between a Lunar Eclipse (Oct 18) and a Solar Eclipse (Nov 3) right now. Throughout history, eclipses have been considered to be very powerful phenomena. See blog for more info and a special Eclipse astrological chart reading price!
During this potent time of the year, the nights gets longer and we start to turn inside and seek our inner light.  What better way to do this than with your sisters in a beautiful wash of feminine shakti!
Are you ready to own the ravishing, intoxicating, sacred beauty that you actually are…and live your life with pleasure as your guiding force?
This Series of 5 workshops combine to unlock the mystery & awaken the divine feminine within you through sacred healing dance.
1) November 1st – SEXUALITY:  Learn to Embody the Divine Feminine through Tantric Belly dancing.
2) November 8th – POWER:  Feel a new sense of POWER, not power ‘over’ but the power of standing in your deepest truth.
3) November 15th – LOVE:  Discover a new way to engage your feminine sensitivity to navigate in the world.
4) November 22nd – BEAUTY:  Feel your beauty!  Enjoy the allure of the goddess, the siren or mermaid. The Masculine really is drawn to a woman’s energy field, and when it is shining, all he wants to do is sit in that field.
5) December 6th – Mystical Connection to the Goddess:  Experience the Archetypal energies you have worked on creating over the month in a beautiful temple space we create together.  You will be initiated to your PRIESTESS!
**I invite you to wear all white… or all black, as part of our PRIESTESS ritual.**
INVESTMENT:  $125 for all 5 workshops, or $30 per separate workshop.  You are welcome to come to any single workshop.  Although an immersion is recommended, you do not have to attend the whole series to enjoy and benefit from one or more workshops.
WHERE:   The Love Dome, 200 Lincoln Blvd., Venice, California 90291  (Opposite Wholefoods Venice i block north of Rose ave on the East side of the street)
WHEN:     7.30PM – 10PM
PARKING:  Street Parking.  Lincoln Blvd. or side streets
WHAT YOU’LL GET FROM THE EXPERIENCE:
Heal old wounds, overcome fear, embrace sensuality and sexuality.
Bask in the radiance of your beauty in an emotionally safe space.
Feel sexy and ALIVE in your body.
Feel an incredible sweetness you did not know you had.
Be deeply empowered and yet fully compassionate.
Break through any stagnation you might be feeling.
Create a profound and joyful shift in your way of seeing …
BENEFITS of this practice:
Learn to receive: graciously accept compliments, have more attractive energy.
Notice how men (or predominantly masculine identified people) rush to assist and admire you wherever you go, and women feel emotionally safe with you. 
Let your heart and spirit sing together when your sexuality is ignited … allowing the flow of shakti in your body and energy field to radiate.
These ancient but simple techniques of movement in community beckon to us from our distant past – from our feminine lineage of sacred temple dancing. In pre -christian times, humans accessed higher vibrations and created a portal to the dimensions of spirit by women dancing and sounding in a group in a sacred place. This raised their vibrations in unison. The men honored and assisted this process. Our bodies remember this! and we just need to be reminded, by bypassing the mind and diving into the movements with a new found awareness.

THIS IS FOR YOU IF…You want to Reclaim your Feminine Power!   Are you, or your friends curious about what Tantric Bellydance is?   How do you get that GLOW that some magical women around you have?  Come and find out on Friday!

XOXO Josie

See the facebook invite:
https://www.facebook.com/events/735892483106752/?context=create&ref_dashboard_filter=calendar#

INTERESTED BUT WANT TO KNOW MORE BEFORE YOU SAY YES?
 The full description is on my website: http://tantricalchemy.com/index/tantric-dance

If you have a specific question or want to know more, feel free to send me an email at Josie@TantricAlchemy.com and we’ll set up a time to chat on the phone.

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Happy dancers from our September/October series!

~ Womb Temple

With delight she’s discovering a new ‘home’ in her body ~ her Womb Temple.

She’s reclaiming her sanctuary that was in ruins for so long. She is cleaning and clearing her sullied sacred space, breathing into it, meditating & chanting here.
She’s discovering the dance of the womb.
She’s tapping into amazing levels of creativity & joy.
She’s finding here a teacher & guide that is far superior to the one she’s known. Living from here feels most familiar ~ it feels like home.
She is loving the richness of this mystical, magical, juicy haven.
She’s deepening her trust in this font.

The more regularly she visits her shrine, the more saturated she is with her own brand of wisdom. There’s something magnetic about her today.

She is Holy ground.
Sukhvinder Sircar

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Photo: from Esercizi sessuali taoisti

15 Principles Of New Paradigm Relating

This is it!  Conscious Relationships…I’m ready now…

15 Principles Of New Paradigm Relating

• Happiness is Irrelevant – Be Free To Embody Your Courageous Self
• Your Only Need Should Be – Am I Growing?
• Your Wounded Feelings are Your Responsibility
• You are Never Upset for the Reasons You Think You Are
• Control Does Not Belong In The New Paradigm
• New Paradigm Relationships Require 100 % Conscious Awareness and Contribution From Both People
• Create Balance: Physical, Sexual, Emotional, Mental and Soulful Stimulation/Relaxation
• Transparent Communication. No Secrets, Lies Or Half Truths
• Make Requests Never Demand
• Make Your Partner More Important Than Your Past
• You Are Free. Your Partner Is Free
• You Are Trustworthy. Your Partner is Trustworthy
• Take A Quantum Step Beyond Your Ancestral Wounds In Relationship
• Never Repeat Your Parents Shortcomings
• Always Hang In There, If Your Partner Is Just As Committed – It Will Pass

Anaiya Sophia

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Painting by: Robby Donaghey

RECLAIM YOUR FEMININE POWER IN 5 WEEKS! Completes this Friday October 18th on the Full Moon Eclipse!

Newsletter for New workshop series!! here
newsletterImageRECLAIM YOUR FEMININE POWER IN 5 WEEKS!  Begins Friday Sept. 20th on the FALL EQUINOX

Are you ready to own the ravishing, intoxicating, sacred beauty that you actually are…and live your life with pleasure as your guiding force?

This Series of 5 workshops combine to unlock the mystery & awaken the divine feminine within you through sacred healing dance.

*You are welcome to come to a separate workshops.  Although an immersion is recommended, you do not have to attend the whole series to enjoy and benefit from one or more.

1) September 20th – SEXUALITY:  Learn to Embody the Divine Feminine through Tantric Belly dancing.
2) September 27th – POWER:  Feel a new sense of POWER, not power ‘over’ but the power of standing in your deepest truth.
3) October 4th – LOVE:  Discover a new way to engage your feminine sensitivity to navigate in the world.
4) October 11th – BEAUTY:  Feel your beauty!  Enjoy the allure of the goddess, the siren or mermaid. The Masculine really is drawn to a woman’s energy field, and when it is shining, all he wants to do is sit in that field.
5) October 18th – Mystical Connection to the Goddess:  Experience the Full Moon energies on October 18th in a beautiful temple space in a private home with your new sisters for a luscious celebration.  Goddess refreshments will be served!  Chai and snacks.

INVESTMENT:  $125 for all 5 workshops, or $30 per separate workshop.  You are welcome to come to a single workshop.  Although an immersion is recommended, you do not have to attend the whole series to enjoy and benefit from one workshop.
WHERE:   Week 5  is at a private home.  Please email for address.
WHEN:     7.30PM – 10.30PM    ** optional makeup fun 7 -7.30pm  fairy face painting !**
PARKING:  Street Parking.

WHAT YOU’LL GET FROM THE EXPERIENCE:
Heal old wounds, overcome fear, embrace sensuality and sexuality.
Bask in the radiance of your beauty in an emotionally safe space.
Feel sexy and ALIVE in your body.
Feel an incredible sweetness you did not know you had.
Be deeply empowered and yet fully compassionate.
Break through any stagnation you might be feeling.
Create a profound and joyful shift in your way of seeing …

THIS IS FOR YOU IF…You want to Reclaim your Feminine Power!  Are you (or would your friends be) curious about what Tantric Bellydance is?   How do you get that GLOW that some magical women around you have?  Come and find out this Friday!

XOXO Josie

See the facebook invite:
https://www.facebook.com/events/220794231417008/

INTERESTED BUT WANT TO KNOW MORE BEFORE YOU SAY YES?
 The full description is here

If you have a specific question or want to know more, feel free to send me an email at Josie@TantricAlchemy.com and we’ll set up a time to chat on the phone.

newsletter link is here

THE WARRIORESS
She’s arriving into present time.  This is the Gift of her deep work.  She has been healing her pain, embracing her shadows, claiming her body & womb Temple, releasing her shame, clearing the victim/oppressor, facing her fears, walking out of dishonoring spaces & so much more.  She’s a warrior.  She stands steady, anchored inside herself.  She’s let go her history.  Her cellular memories are cleaned out, and she’s no longer trapped in the past.  As she connects to her divine longing & her passion, she deepens her surrender.Her future is exciting.  She’s becoming relaxed about where her life is heading.  She’s free & uncluttered, & she’s travelling light.  Her energy is no longer sucked into the past, or running away into the future.

She feels powerful & abundant. She’s fully present.  She’s amazed at how relaxed and alert she can be at the same time.  She could easily pass through the eye of a needle.▼

~Sukhvinder Sircar
(Perceptive Artista)

The Red and White Moon Cycles

In our “fast paced” life style women’s period cycles have gone haywire. What is the importance of menstruating with the new moon?

A woman who is healthy on every level (physical, emotional, sexual, mental and soulful) will naturally menstruate on the New Moon or Full Moon. The White Moon cycle is a menstrual cycle that bleeds during the New Moon, whereas the Red Moon cycle is one that bleeds during the Full Moon. Many women’s cycles tend to be either a White Moon cycle, a Red Moon cycle, or a Transition cycle where the cycle is moving from one orientation to the other.

The White Moon Cycle according to legend, mystical arts and yogic philosophy is the most preferred cycle for inner work as a woman is naturally pulling her energy in, and able to utilise her vast rich resources for the expansion of consciousness. The White Moon will be linking with her Emotional, Mental and Soulful energies.

The Red Moon Cycle is one where the natural tendency of the woman will flow externally, outwards into her community and circle.  Here is a cycle where the woman is giving her rich resources, and inner, alone time will be at a minimum. The Red Moon will be linking with her Physical and Sexual energies.

To orientate your cycles towards the White Moon, consciously link your womb to the moon in meditation, prayer, journey work and ritual.  Ask for your womb to align with the White Moon Cycle, consciously linking your awareness to bleed on the next New Moon.  It is in fact very simple and easy to do this.

~Anaiya Sophia

Lightning in a Bottle 2013 report: ♥

LIB was… too too HOT. seriously. dancing daytime was kinda impossible and everyone kept falling asleep in the talks.  Yet it was AMAZING.  I drew an energy portrait in a workshop with Alex and Alyson Grey!  And listened to an amazing Trance channel Bashar as he enchanted, entertained and RAISED the vibration of at least the 500 people sitting there.

Meditating at the nature shrine on the beach was beautiful. It was a poetic offering to nature and spirit.

I managed to dance off the hook and have a peak experience TWICE in 48hrs, which is a record. The days were hotter than hot and I could barely move, so the nights were on. We rocked out.

The FIRST peak was Saturday night… randomly came across Rusko from the UK.  He played the most high energy fun set I think I have every heard.  Drum and bass mostly with him singing and talking over the mike too.  He leapt around the stage waving his arms in the air the whole 2 hr set. Only bringing them down to twiddle his DJ dials.  Soooooo good.

Collective effervescence.

The SECOND and even better peak was Phutureprimitive on Sunday night. He was AMAZING. The crowd were high as high and he was full of love, and it was soooo wild and exciting. I did not expect such a high energy set from him, but MAN did he rock it. I danced my butt off even more and actually had a kundalini rising experience on the dance floor!!  I channeled all my belly dance high vibe, nature love whatever the hell fairy realm sexed up energy, right down through my crown chakra and my body into the earth, and then back out my head, hands and heart. When that happened I went somewhere amazing, becoming totally ecstatic, and the other realms I connected with were pouring out wild love and energy through my body and energy field. Random hugs, synchronistic meetings with my camp-mates and the whole dance floor was me and I was them and we just flew.

nuff said? awesome experience.  Magic…

UPDATE:  live video from the show: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9dM3mGuyA0&feature=youtu.be

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